Rage and Depression...

There are times you tend to say things you never really wanted to say... you hurt people unintentionally but you realize this only when it's too late... your heart is filled with rage... there's fierceness in your eyes... anger brings you out of your sanity and like a mad man you run amidst the darkness not knowing that you're running amidst a crowd... you hit everything that you feel is blocking your way not knowing what you hit was already the person most important to you... then when reality strikes and your sanity comes back to you... you begin to see the product of your madness... you see blood all over you... not yours but someone else's... someone who matters most to you... then you see her body... lifeless... covered with blood... then it all begins to sink in... it was your fault and no one else's... and now it's too late... you've already taken away the only hope you have... depression eats you up... you feel as rotten as ever... you want to be lifeless as well... you hurt yourself... but all you feel is pain... and you realize that you're still alive... now your covered with your own blood... there's a sharp sensation all over your body... you lie on the ground... breathing heavily... wishing you were dead... but death is nowhere near... you feel more pain... and your sanity leaves you again... you're still alive... but your soul had died from the moment you hit her... now being sorry can't save her... it can't save you...

ONE MORE CHANCE...

NURSING DIAGNOSIS: LOVE

Nursing diagnosis for people who are in love:

Missing him/her: alteration in comfort; pain at the chest area related to missing someone

You're with him/her: risk for dehydration related to over perspiration

She finally said "yes": increased cardiac output to happiness/ over excitement

He/she kissed you: ineffective airway clearance related to over kissing

You fought: sleep pattern disturbance related to love quarrel

You broke up: imbalanced nutrition less than body requirements related to NPO(Nothing Per Orem/ nothing by mouth/ not eating) for one month secondary to break up

LOVE POEM

LOVE POEM
TITA LACAMBRA-AYALA


Yonder the blue tree
weeps for me, weeps for me
it sees you
you not me.

Speak you must
sing your words
act your dreams out
dance your life

Trim grosgrain rainbow
unshod your feet
claim the terrible snowhills
swim in my sea.

Earth be sky now
sky be earth
invert your caprice
but love me love me.

I CAN NEVER TELL...

Here's something I composed months ago for my special someone... it's a song... one of my little angels requested me to write a poem for her something similar to this one so I decided to post this for her until I'm able to finish the poem she requested me to write...

Life is unfair
You can never turn away
You know you love someone
But you can never make a move to tell
Just like me2x

I want to tell you
How much you mean to me
But when we are together
I can barely speak
It's bad enough
It's hard enough

I want to express
How my heart beats for you
But I have to control
This feeling that I have for you
I barely know2x

Oh give me a sign
I need to know how you feel
It's hard to pretend
That I am just another friend
It's bad enough
It's hard enough

Bridge:
I need to know how you feel
I need to know what's the deal
I need to know what is real
I need to know...

Coda:
Oh give me a sign
I need to know how you feel
It's hard to pretend
That you are just a special friend

...you are just a special friend
...special friend