THE 24 STANZA POEM...

This is a poem I wrote around a year ago for my ex... it was also published in one of our school mags "UPGRADE" Volume 3 Issue 2 June 2006

I raised my head
Hoping to see light
But if you're just another shadow
If you're in the dark
How could light ever shine upon you

Used to think we can be together
Used to wish someday we will be
But now all my dreams are shattered
Scattered along the plains of sorrow
Like those broken pieces of glass


I can't explain this feeling
Slowly I am drifting
Drifting apart from who I used to be
That man I used to see

I can't say
"Please stay"
Cause you've already flown away
What more can I do
When I can no longer
Get close to you


It's all my fault
Yeah it's my fault
And I can't do anything else
But to admit it
Baby what's the use of trying
When I was the one
Who's your cause for leaving

I've already said
"I'm sorry"
But nothing's changed
I'm still weary
From that day I had to say,
"Goodbye"
Baby why can't I just die

I know now nothing's the same
Oh baby it's such a shame
But it was I who said,
"Goodnight"
Now I've lost my only light

I lost my strength,
My might
I lost my only reason,
To smile
I broke my armor and
My sword
Now I lay before
My Lord


So helpless
Cause I've been so careless
I wasn't able to admit
What you really meant

I kept denying and
Fightitng this feeling
And now that you're gone
I keep reminiscing

Why can't I just die?
How could I cry?
When all along
I was the boulder
That kept us away
From being together

I used to be your only shoulder
But now I'm just a mere watcher
Watching you bloom away from me
Wishing I was the one with thee

I used to be your only angel
But now I'm nothing but a heavy barbell
A load too heavy for you too carry
Cause I've been a fool, my baby

I used to be your only soul mate
Everything more than a mere playmate
Our hearts used to be entwined
But now you're no longer mine

I was a fool to let go of you
But that was what I was supposed to do
To stop your tears from falling down
To give you back your precious crown

But now I bear this loneliness
I've lost my only happiness
But i had to do what was right
To find myself I have to fight

Whenever I see you cry
I force myself not to try
To hug you is what I want
But to do this is what I can't

Without you,
It's hard to continue living
But I have to
Without even speaking
Or in this pool
I would be drowning
And never again
Will my light be shining

To stay away would be a crime
But to stay close is sour than lime
Now all I ask is your time
To hear me out speak these lines

"I've been hoping we could talk
And maybe just take a walk
But I'm afraid you'd refuse
And ask me, 'What's the use?'

But baby I beg you
Please hear me out
Listen I don't want to make you pout
Nor do I want to make you shout
I just want to talk it out

You are my only shoulder
The only reason I am stronger
You are my only angel
The only reason I still struggle

Baby I love you
That's what's true
But I know he's here to stay for you
And there's nothing more that I can do
But to say goodbye to what is through
It's bad enough that it didn't last
But though this is the case
I am still true
To what I always promised you

So baby now I won't say goodnight
And from your side I will not flight
To still be your guiding light
To fight for your honor with all my might
To be your knight for all of time..."

BY: Dr. Sparkle314